| Argh! |
[Apr. 17th, 2006|02:15 pm] |
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I am almost 29 years old. I feel like an adult. I hope I act like an adult. How is it that as I get older I feel like my father is aging backward. Is it that the more mature I am, I am able to see how immature he is? Or, is he realizing that immaturity works for him, like an annoying teenager that always gets his way because his family would rather not deal with him? I want to slap him and tell him to grow up. Its like he feels entitled to be an asshole, because "that's his nature." Fucking bullshit. |
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| Horrorscope: |
[Apr. 10th, 2006|12:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  silly | ] |
| [ | music |
| | One - Cowboy Junkies | ] |
Daily extended (by Astrology.com)
If you were a mountain goat, you'd find that an elusive toehold on the highest, craggiest mountainside leads to a path that leads to a secret pasture where the most delicious, sought-after mountain-goat munchies lie in wait for all the courageous, well-coordinated mountain goats. Like that mountain goat, you've got an intrepid sense of adventure, you're well balanced and you're just a little bit lucky. You'll find a foothold. Once your projects establish themselves, it'll be every bit as much reward time for you as it is for the brave mountain goat!
I love it! I don't particularly like goats, but if it means good things, I think I can reconsider my prior feelings on them.
:-) |
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| So, maybe parents can grow up... |
[Mar. 7th, 2006|09:24 am] |
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As you can imagine, being a twin is often a comparison game. Jess is this, Tanya is that. Somehow, just because we are twins we have to be at opposite ends of every spectrum. The thing is, it can be hurtful. Until last night, I thought I had let go of something my Dad said a long time ago. But then he said it again last night. How could he have said it? Didn't he know he hurt me the first time? Obviously not. Last night, he got an earful. Then he sent me this:
"Tanya,
I really hope that I did not affend you last night. It was just a father's
comparison. And maybe not fair, but you know me, can't keep my big mouth
shut.
Just remeber one thing, I love you.
Dad."
I was pretty upset last night, so ready to be resentful. But he is human, as am I. I say stupid things all the time. I just can't believe he apologized. |
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| Hmmm. |
[Feb. 22nd, 2006|10:46 am] |
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| |  content | ] |
I know it has been awhile since I have posted ANYTHING. I have many moments that I think, "I should share this in my LJ." But it is always when I am ticked off at someone or somebody. So I typically just deal with it in another way.
But today is an excellent day! I have been working on a project that kept failing and it was starting to get me down that I couldn't fix it. This morning I decided to ask for help. My co-worker told me that when he was doing this job, it would sometimes take him months to work out the crazy little quirks in the archaic program I am using. AND he helped me fix it. It is fixed. Ahh. It feels so good. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 17th, 2005|08:24 pm] |
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You are The High Priestess
Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.
The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out. |
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| I thought this was kinda cool... |
[Nov. 7th, 2005|02:39 pm] |
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| |  busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Just Like Me - Sarah McLachlan | ] |
| Your Superhero Profile | 
Your Superhero Name is The Dream Dwarf
Your Superpower is Genetic engineering
Your Weakness is Vince Vaughn
Your Weapon is Your Prototype Bludgeon
Your Mode of Transportation is Slide |
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| TGIF |
[Aug. 19th, 2005|04:17 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  mellow | ] |
| [ | music |
| | stupid - toad the wet sprocket | ] |
1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
( my answers ) |
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| ARGH!!! |
[Jun. 29th, 2005|11:19 am] |
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| |  angry | ] |
I have been waiting three weeks for my background check to come back so that I can start my new job. I finally could not take it any longer and called the company doing the check. After talking to the operator who could not determine the hold up, I left messages for two other "Customer Service Reps." an hour later I get a call from one of them. She said that my driving record had not come back yet. So she went over the information I sent. They mis-read my driver's license number. The fact that it takes three weeks to find this out, and I am given the brush off every time I ask if I can help, is so very frustrating. I aksed the woman why it took this long. She said, she just got it returned today. WHAT?!? I'm sorry but if a company's sole business is background checks wouldn't it make sense to have a system in place to check on things like this when it has tken twice as long as it normally does? PLUS, when I asked if this can be taken care of today, she told me she is not sure how long it is going to take. It could be a couple days. Apparently, they are connected to the DMV in some way so am not able to expedite it myself by going to the DMV. This makes no sense whatsoever. If it is a peer to peer system why would it take a couple days??? The system checks some DMV database, it should take a few minutes at the most.
Okay, I think I need to stop thinking about this. I am just too mad right now to deal with it. I think I need to hunt down coffee and a ciggarette or two. |
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| Wow. |
[Jun. 22nd, 2005|12:30 pm] |
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| |  cheerful | ] |
It is really strange that my last day feels so normal. I thought I would be a little more sad to go. I guess everyone is right, I left a long time ago. My co-worker started crying this morning and I felt a little guilty.
In the past couple days I have been constantly eyeing the fortune I have taped to my monitor, "You will have full contentment by summers end." Maybe I should buy a lotto ticket today with the numbers on it. |
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| Yeah for sun and convertibles! |
[Mar. 30th, 2005|02:49 pm] |
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| |  giddy | ] |
I wanted it to be sunny for just one day. I can't believe it happened this day that I picked up my new sunglasses.
I am in a state of bliss.
:-) |
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| The blah Tuesdays... |
[Mar. 22nd, 2005|05:54 pm] |
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| |  determined | ] |
I made the realization today that I have once again become sedate at my job. I am actually getting to the end of piles that have sat on my desk for over a month. I finished a tedious project that I started over two years ago. The elation kinda got to me. This is not good. I cannot be okay with my job even if it is not as crazy as it was. It makes sense that in the the year since I added on the work of two more people that someday I would reach a point in which I can accomplish it all. We all can adapt, but that doesn't make my job any more enjoyable. It just means that now I can be a slacker sometimes.
Things I need to remember:
*My boss is a crazy person
*I work for a company that would rather get rid of you than support you
*I get paid crap for the amount of work I do
*A university should never be for-profit
*All of the cool people I work with are leaving/have already left
*Life is about taking chances
I think tonight is about mapping out what I want to do with my life. Enough of this waiting for it to happen crap. |
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| Happiness is... |
[Mar. 12th, 2005|01:54 am] |
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| |  excited | ] |
Buying a new (to me!) black, Saab convertible.
I love, love it.
I will post pictures soon.
It doesn't quite feel real because I have not driven it alone. It is a manual. I drove a manual about eight years ago and that was only for a couple weeks. After causing the car to stall twice on a hill, I got pretty scared of killing it entirely. Luckily, Ju-Lie was along and was patient enough to help me build my confidence. The thing is, I can't leave my house without having to stop on a hill. Damn Seattle and all of her hills! So, I must learn and learn fast if I want to sell my old Grandpa-mobile. It is funny, but I am a little sad to let it go. It is the only thing I have that belonged to my grandfather. Not that I was close to him, but sometimes it feels like he around when I am driving it. Usually telling me to speed up. My dad inherited his lead foot from him.
I should get some sleep if I am going to get up on time in the morning.
Good night! |
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| ahhh... |
[Feb. 20th, 2005|01:50 am] |
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| | content | ] |
I think the flashfloods last night cleared my head.
Except for missing my kitty I am having a great time in the land of fruits and nuts. |
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| Bring it on. |
[Feb. 3rd, 2005|12:51 pm] |
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| |  restless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | random thoughts floating around | ] |
Gemini Horoscope for week of February 3, 2005
"Somewhere in the world is a tree that has been struck by lightning in such a way that the scorch marks show your initials. This is the week of all weeks when you could find that tree. Somewhere in this world, there is a treasure that has no value to anyone but you, and a secret that is meaningless to everyone except you, and a frontier that possesses a revelation only you know how to exploit. This is the week when you could stumble upon those things. Somewhere in this world, Gemini, there is a person who could ask you the precise question you need to hear in order to catalyze the next phase of your evolution. This is the week when you might run into that person." |
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| Mmmm...mashed potatoes |
[Nov. 21st, 2004|01:50 pm] |
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| |  hungry | ] |
You Are Mashed Potatoes |
Oridnary, comforting, and more than a little predictable
You're the glue that holds everyone together.
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| Gemini Horoscope for week of November 11, 2004 |
[Nov. 11th, 2004|06:16 pm] |
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"Anybody can become angry--that is easy," said Aristotle. "But to be angry with the right person, and to the right degree, and at the right time, and for the right purpose, and in the right way--that is not within everybody's power and is not easy." I agree with Aristotle. Those who are able to express anger with maximum integrity are as brilliant as any Nobel Prize winner and as saintly as Gandhi and Mother Teresa combined. Can you imagine yourself rising to that challenge, Gemini? Your assignment in the coming week is to try to master the art of constructive wrath.
Constructive wrath, hmm... |
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| Blech. |
[Oct. 14th, 2004|03:35 pm] |
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...very pitiful post to follow. Please ignore if you are not willing to act like a mom and tell me everything is going to be okay.
I woke up this morning feeling a little better than I when I went to sleep.
Then, I rolled over on my side. It felt like a knife was stabbing me over and over. Ou-uch!
Went to a doctor and found out I have bronchitis AND shingles. Yeah, me. I can't breathe. I can't sit, lay, or stand without my side hurting. In other words, forget about resting. You would think, of the four medications I received one of them would help me sleep. But alas, I am allergic to codeine and I have to take the damn shingles anti-viral medication every 4-5 hours. Sheesh.
Okay, I am done with the self pity. I am taking some tylenol PM, setting my alarm for my next pill, and going to attempt to find a position laying down that doesn't cause too much pain.
Ta Ta. |
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| School |
[Sep. 7th, 2004|01:20 pm] |
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| |  nerdy | ] |
So the magic of September has gotten to me. There is something about fall that makes me want to start school. It is like I am under a spell. I have signed up for an accounting class in late fall and am trying to get into a law class online before then.
I keep kicking myself for taking so much time off. It has been good to work on my house, but it has pushed out graduation to February of 2006. Ack! My plan at this point is to finish as many classes as I can before going completely crazy in my job. Then I will most likely find a job that has some sort of tuition program to finish out my degree. Things can certainly change, but at least I have some sort of plan. I can't keep working here and not take advantage of the free school. I feel like I am voluntarily giving away money. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 19th, 2004|12:19 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | mellow | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lance Armstrong being interviewed on Charlie Rose | ] |
Whew! I am sure that everyone must remove ugly-ass wallpaper sometime during their life. I am HAPPY that my slow torture is over. I started painting the kitchen this evening. I LOVE it. Finally, my house is almost completely my colors. I think I may even finish by this weekend.
Things I need to figure out:
1. How the hell am I going to decorate the dining room?
a. paint chairs and table
b. throw out chairs and table and buy something new
c. buy new art for wall
d. figure out what art I have would go with the table and chair decision
2. Work on bedroom or put it off for awhile?
3. What art to put up in hallway?
In other news, I will soon have a roommate!!! ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) quackyloo is moving to Seattle. I am totally excited that she is coming. She will be here in a few weeks. The slow deterioration of my savings account will soon end. I have actually spent less than anticipated even with furniture purchases and (of course!) ( the tattoo. )
Well I should probably be off. I am going to the Olympic National Forest tomorrow to commune with the amazing trees and forest. I think it will be the perfect end to a great week. |
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